I've lost about 3" around my waist, yet, I haven't lost any weight. That's what swimming and weightlifting does.

Paints don't fit me anymore.


Also, new flask. It's bigger and better than the one I've had before. That means I can get more people drunk...

Speaking of which, month ago I had to move my grandparents into a nursing home. I inherited all their liquor, which is over 30 years old. Tell me when a bottle of whiskey was only 5 bucks, because that's what the price tags say. I've have to do research...

A new phone finally. I like it a lot.

The first hangover of many in the getting-over-being-in-love-with-my-best-friend process.

When relationships get me down... I smoke a bat or do some shroomies :D. No hangovers, good times... Just a little dragged out the next day.

That said, I recently lost 3 things, all by choice, all within the span of a week because I am emo-face and hate mah life!

Lost
- Boyfriend
- Job
- Allllll my mushrooms


.... and i couldn't be happier.

Now I just need to acquire my motivation to write my papers and what not.

*hug* glad you're OK though. Weed makes me even more paranoid than I am already, and it generally makes me cry. Never tried shrooms.

Oh, I lost them all by choice. So i am happier then a pig in shit right now.

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but making these moves stresses me out tenfold... so that's when substance abuse comes into play!

just gotta find my motivation to like... do school junk with all this wonderful free time i have now that i've cro-barred the stage 5 clinger off of me, and ditched my shitty job that overworked me beyond reason for a 4th year student with way too many seminar papers to write. 2 weeks work I made the entirety of my rent. Not cool!

I'll find a job eventually, and boys aren't worth the bother.

More confidence

I actually acquired a new boyfriend, as nuts as this might seem. He's really very nice, gorgeously good looking and Christian but in all the right ways.
Along with this I also acquired a sense of extreme panic that there is now something fairly large in my life that I must learn to keep balanced and perfect and work at, but hey, it's a learning process that I just seem to have gotten to a bit later than everyone else.

Also, his name rhymes with 'Clever Fucker'.

Hard medicine. As needed as it was unpleasant (on which note, at least it came from a good friend).

Though, on top of everything else so far, it almost feels like I badly need someone to hit or something to destroy or someone to fuck or somewhere to run until my legs give out and I fly face-first across the asphalt in the middle of the night.

Unfortunately, tonight's probably going to be far more boring than that.

Oh - and a t-shirt that looks like Spider-man's outfit. Which is awesome.

Frecklypeach. Your avatar is AWESOME.

The desire to blow my fucking brains out. If only that was the answer...


Srsly.

Gas. We're not talking about a little bit here, but gut wrenching bloating. I was in meetings all day and could let it out, though the desire was there, being in an enclosed space. It was so bad, I made the Men's Room echo for about ten minutes. That's what I get for drinking 30 year old rum...




Lift your head up high...and blow your brains out.

Vindication.

All the mutual friends of myself and the (probably now ex-)best friend that I'm in love with are 100% on my side that he's treated me like total crap and none of us particularly want to know him anymore, the way he's been acting. Lovely jubbly.

Okay, Meri, that actually sounds like crap, but okay.

Acquired: seeing my father drunk as hell and still able to function and make friends at a house party.

Well, it's not very nice, especially not for him, but it'll make avoiding him until I get over this stupid love thing a much less lonely place. Previously it would have meant avoiding a lot of my other friends as well whenever he was around.

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ALSO ACQUIRED: a hurt, possibly sprained wrist.

Mm. Yes. I've been on the other side of the stick though. It sucks finding out that all the friends you had weren't actually your friends, but just your boyfriends'. And then finding out that since they were your only friends..you're left by yourself. At least for a good bit.


Anyway, I acquired a whole slew of winter work clothes. And 2 less pounds since I last posted! (Although that could just be chalked up to water weight. We'll see.)

more consequences of having bisexual women as best friends than is comfortable.

My God Meri. You've got more drama than the East Enders. You should do a sitcom.



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The realization that my truck is actually really, really heavy when I have to push it.

Animal Crossing for the Wii.

Anyone else gonna get this? If so I might consider getting the Wii speak thing but I don't know enough people with a wii let alone who even like this sort of game.

I've acquired self-imposed house arrest! Do not pass go. Do not collect 200 boozes.

Those weird dill-pickle-flavored sunflower seeds. They're crazy, but oddly addictive. I think it'd be fun to make a grab-bag of those, some bbq seeds and some normal salty ones. It'd be like sucking on a hamburger.

A full bladder.

And soon an empty bladder.

68/80 on Russian grammar exam. Half those mistakes were totally stupid ones that I have no idea how I made.

Maybe because Russian grammar is stupid...